It started innocently enough, as most relationships do.
I was completely taken by you and determined to win you over. But things changed along the way.
You took over my thoughts and people started noticing my obsession with you. I was consumed with thoughts of how to please you. Our good days brought me instant joy, but our bad days sent me on a tailspin of doom wondering what I did wrong. I became filled with self- hatred during that time. Why didn’t you like me? Why was I not good enough?? I became depressed, withdrawn and self-conscious about the time I spent with you.
I will admit to being baffled by your behavior also. If your goal was to make me feel insufficient, not good enough or weak…well, you succeeded. But not for long.
So this will be my last contact with you.
You won’t need to worry about me anymore.
You are no longer welcome in my home.
I don’t deserve to be treated like you treated me – lying to me; misrepresenting my accomplishments; judging me in a way that does not show who I am. Honestly, it seems like you just get joy out of being needlessly cruel.
Why my change of heart?
I read a quote yesterday that basically says that if you don’t know what to do, you should do nothing.
Just sit and listen to what your heart tells you.
So I did that. I turned off all these negative voices in my head telling me I was weak, unlikeable, unattractive and wholly and completely undesirable ( and those are just the emotions I could easily identify). Believe me, it wasn’t easy to turn off those voices, but I DID. And when I did I realized that what I thought was my heart talking to me, was actually just years of old negative crap rearing its ugly head. That’s what YOU made me believe. I am not any of those things you had me feeling or thinking
So goodbye, scale!
Hello , strong, intelligent, funny,kind woman in the mirror.
I AM MORE THAN JUST A NUMBER!
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